Yesterday of my Life

Yesterday wasn’t very much a good day at work. It may seem true that everyday may not possibly the best days of work but the feelings I had it totally different yesterday. How shall I put it? I shall say I had a heavy heart after an episode at work. That episode did involved me indirectly and it kind of affected my performance at work throughout the evening.

I was cleaning the conveyor belt at work while a dodgy looking guy walked out of my checkout and was giving me all the very wrong impression. The alarm at the checkout went off as he walked passed and he was taking out a cigarette from the pack as he walked out. I did not do anything although he’s dodgy but just glance at my workmate bizarrely. The security at the centre saw him and called him back so that I could check his bag. I stood there – speechless – while he unzip his bag to show us the contents. A can of Lynx was found and he apologised to me but the security felt the can and it was empty. I don’t know if he’s hiding something but I could felt the security being harsh as the alarm still goes off. Then we found a DVD that sets off the alarm but the guy denied stealing that. Of course, I didn’t hum a word as the guy looked mentally unstable. The security then asked him to empty his pockets but he refused and took off. The security ran after him, leaving his cigarettes, Lynx and DVD behind. My supervisor came down to check on me and said the DVD doesn’t belong to the store.

At that instance, I felt a pang of guiltiness running through me. Did the security and I accused the guy wrongfully? Just within minutes, a woman shoplifted at the pharmacy and yet another episode of police and thief broke out. All in all, they caught the woman, the police came and lives are resumed to normal. But I didn’t feel the same. I still carried a heavy heart and I have no confidence as I used to have catching bad eggs. It’s just because I’m still unsure if I did the right thing by accusing that guy or if he actually has something to hide in his pockets.

It’s inevitable this sort of issues should always be considered over and over. I do not know how to tell the bad from the good and it’s undeniable that everyone has their own agendas – regardless of stealing or being a good person in the society. I think it’s always wise to look at things from a different angle and this is my new goal towards the days which I’m embracing.

Keeping Faith

To be honest, there are a whole lot of things I would like to post on my blog lately but I didn’t have the time to. Why? – Its just because I’m pretty much preoccupied with another of Jodi Picoult’s book, Keeping Faith. This is yet another brilliantly written book by Picoult with a good ol’ courtroom story that revolves around the life of a little girl who interacts with God upon her parents’ divorce. I don’t know if seeing God or interacting with God would cause how much ciaos since God Himself lives in us. Still, this book brings out a good sense of how the media portrays God and how different religions see God in a different form.

Of course, the issue in the book is the God the little girl sees is a female God and the traditional portrayal of God is often seen as male. But I guess what matters most is how much we love, devote and willing to give to God, regardless of what gender He/She is. This book hasn’t change much of my perceptions of God, but it does strengthen my faith. No matter what others think of Him, He is still the best Father I could ever asked for.